• I was in the kitchen, preparing for dinner, when Ari entered the kitchen and said, “There is this chef– wait, perhaps a competitor in a cooking competition. They prepared sashimi, right, and for some reason, the judges were like, ‘ Your sashimi is good, but you will need to elevate it more.’ How do you elevate a sashimi? It’s a raw and cold dish.”

    I’m paraphrasing, but you know the gist.

    That said, that was exactly my thought, too. I can understand if it’s beef tartare or carpaccio, but sashimi? The only thing I can think of is either you use a God-level technique (IDK, your knife skill is on par with Zoro from “One Piece”, I guess?) or catching a legendary-level tuna that people would mistake for a legendary Pokemon. Or add more wasabi? Perhaps?

    Anyway! It reminds me of this book that I finished last month-ish. I was hemming and hawing on whether I should write anything about this novel on this blog, mostly because this novel is… different. It’s not a bad novel; it’s just different from what I expected in the beginning.

    This was the novel: The Kamogawa Food Detectives by Hisashi Kashiwai.

    I must preface this “review” with a disclaimer: I approached this novel with a different expectation and it does not make this novel, and anyone involved in bringing this work to the mass, should be seen as less than extraordinary.

    I thought this novel was about a beat-up detective or Private Investigator working on criminal cases, and throughout their investigation process, food was one of the central elements in their daily life. Think… “The Cat who Solved Three Murders” by L T Shearer, a.k.a. Enid Blyton meets murder mysteries.

    … Or Lisbeth Salander with IKEA furnitures on “The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo”. OK, too far fetched, but you get what I mean.

    Apparently, the novel is about a father-and-daughter duo helping their clients unlock memories from dishes. The father, Nagare Kamogawa, was an ex-police and the chef of the Kamogawa Diner; a diner that also served as the front of the detective agency, run by Nagare’s daughter, Koishi Kamogawa. Food, as expected, plays a central role in this novel. The scene always started with the potential client entering the diner, getting curious about how quiet and unassuming the place was, trying the meal prepared by Nagare, then sharing their issue or request with Koishi at the office at the back of the diner. Then, two weeks later, the client returned to the diner, with Nagare and Koishi managed to find the dish they had been looking for.

    In summary, I initially thought the novel would be a mix of “CSI: Las Vegas” with Anthony Bourdain’s “Parts Unknown” (I would blame myself for watching “CSI: Las Vegas” one episode too many), and I got episodes of “Midnight Diner” with food research. No regrets, honestly.

    Now. My favorite part of the novel is when the client is tasting Nagare’s dishes for the first time. I feel this is where Kashiwai-sensei is bringing out the sense of Kyoto and what this ancient town has stood for in the Japanese culinary world.

    As Hideji’s gaze skipped between the various dishes, Nagare went on:

    ‘Stewed arame and deep-fried tofu. Okara croquettes. Kikuna leaves dressed with sesame and miso. Kurama-style sardine. Hirosu tofu bal in broth. Pork belly simmered in Kyobancha tea. Fresh tofu curd with sour plum paste. Oh, and Koishi’s rice-bran-pickled cucumbers. Nothing too extravagant. If anything, the highlights are probably the firmly cooked Goshu rice and the miso soup with ebi-imo taro. Anyway, enjoy the meal. Oh, and make sure you put a good sprinkle of sansho pepper on the soup — it’ll warm you right up.’

    His eyes gleaming, Hideji nodded along to Nagare’s every word.

    Chapter 1: Nabeyaki Udon

    As an Indonesian living in Malaysia, I believe the food mentioned above would look great, but it won’t hit my taste buds as strongly as I would like, simply because I’m used to spicy food, drenched with chili sauce and strong flavor. Does it make the food mentioned above less superior than the one I would eat daily? Heck, no.

    On the contrary, I appreciate the simplicity of the meal explained above. This part: “… If anything, the highlights are probably the firmly cooked Goshu rice and the miso soup with ebi-imo taro.” How many people could show off plain steamed rice and miso soup as the highlight of their whole repertoire? If anything, this shows the Japanese culinary world as delicate and as as-it-is. In the Japanese culinary universe, you won’t, and don’t, need additional spices or herbs to “elevate” your dishes. Your dishes will do the talking with their main ingredient. Does it mean that the Japanese would reject spicy food or food with strong flavors? Not really, no. You might want to watch a J-drama titled “Gekikaradou” (The Way of Hot and Spicy) — and I must add that Sapporo’s curry soup is one of the best dishes in the world, but in the end, when we are talking about traditional Japanese food, in this case, sashimi, such additional spices might not be needed. Different way of preparing, perhaps. Not always in terms of adding spices or flavor extensions.

    Such focus on Japanese food in the novel has been so prevalent, hence my confusion when Ari mentioned that a cooking show judge said that “the sashimi could be elevated”. I know most Japanese would kick me for adding shoyu on my chawanmushi (I can’t help it! At least the shoyu would give a bit of a nice saltiness to the egg pudding), so I honestly don’t see the need to “elevate” a plate of sashimi. Sashimi, inherently, is a dish served with such respect for quality and skill, and I honestly believe that the only way to elevate a plate of sashimi is by having it directly at the fish market with a cup of ocha in the wee hours in the morning, just as the fish market opens.

    While we are on the topic of this novel, I also want to highlight the… subtlety in this work. If you are familiar with the Japanese’s concept of honne and tatemae, you might able to pick them up once or twice throughout this book, hahah. My favorite:

    ‘What kind of food do you serve?’ asked Suyako, eyeing the ramen bowl that had been left on the counter, in which a small pool of broth remained. ‘I’m afraid I’m a little fussy.’

    ‘Well, if you’re happy with something light, I can serve you right away.’

    ‘That’d be just fine. I eat like a bird,’ said Suyako, a relieved look on her face.

    ‘Apologies for the wait,’ said Nagare, arriving with the food. ‘I’ve prepared a selection of light dishes.’ He began removing a series of small plates from the round tray he was carrying and positioning them in front of Suyako.

    ‘From top left,’ began Nagare, tucking the tray under his arm, Miyajima oysters, simmered Kurama style, miso-glazed baked butterburs with millet cake, bracken and bamboo shoot stew, chargrilled moroko, breast of Kyoto-reared chicken with a wasabi dressing, and vinegared Wakasa mackerel wrapped in pickled Shogoin turnip. In the bottom right you have a hamaguri clam broth thickened with kudzu starch. … Today’s rice is from the Koshihikari variety, sourced from Tamba.’

    Once Nagare was out of sight, Suyako took the Kurama-style simmered oyster and placed it on top of her rice, then poured some tea over the bowl and began bolting it down. With the occasional paise to sample the wasabi-dressed chicken breast, she emptied the bowl entirely, right down to the last grain of rice.

    ‘More rice? asked Nagare, who had emerged from the kitchen again and was extending his round tray in her direction.

    Chapter 4: Tonkatsu

    I love how Kashiwai-sensei presented a contrast in such a fleeting way with several paragraphs. We see the character Suyako, trying to show how delicate she is by saying, “I’m a little fussy” and “I eat like a bird”, but ended up clearing down a whole traditional set menu. If you are familiar with Japanese dishes, you would know that a Japanese regular set menu meal is… a lot. It usually looked like this at minimum:

    Wagyu Ishiyaki set at Yuzu, Suria KLCC

    While it can also be seen that Nagare’s cooking skill is really good since Suyako, who might rarely eat heartily, managed to finish the whole set meal, it shows how most Japanese are expected to behave and say things in a certain way to uphold their image, yet when being face to face with a delicious meal, one would not be able to resist.

    As a whole, this novel is interesting in the sense that this specific genre, cozy mystery, is a new area for me. I do have favorites, though! Nita Prose’s works are some of my favorites (I know I have written about “The Maid”, and I am yet to write about “The Mystery Guest” and “The Mistletoe Mystery”. I promise I will do that. Sometime later. Ish) and Hisashi Kashiwai’s works would be a great additional on the book shelves. As a matter of fact, I have another one here: The Restaurant of Lost Recipes.

    Yes, I know. Will read it. Will write about it. All that jazz. Yes.

    "You Make Me Smile" — Frad

    Sunny with a hint of clouds

  • I have been plagued by this memory of a beauty YouTuber, short hair dyed red, with stacked eyeshadow pots. This YouTuber was one of my go-tos whenever I’m looking for a makeup tutorial, and while I had some of her videos saved on a playlist, I found out that she set her older videos to “Unlisted”, hence the missing videos from my playlist. I have been racking my brain trying to remember who she was for months, until I found her name mentioned in a several-year-old Reddit post last night.

    Let me reintroduce to you: xsparkage, a.k.a. Leesha.

    Rewatching her videos gave me such a trip down the memory lane, on how and why I love the Beauty YouTube environment at that time, despite all the drama and the mess in the year following. It has always been so genuine and less filtered. It was amateur, messy, grainy, not poreless, unprofessional, bad lighting, not forced by an algorithm, and genuine. It felt like sitting with your friend in the room doing makeup. The biggest irony? Their skin is not perfect, but these beauty YouTuber putting their face front and center, put it on the camera as close as possible because goddamnit the viewers have the right to see how they make that perfect back-to-school look. They need to know the techniques! That “come what may”-mentality, unfear of being called “cringy”.

    I also noticed something important from these old videos: You can see when the YouTuber is genuinely liking the product. They will genuinely rave about it as iwantedbethany put it succinctly:

    No, you won’t see PR packages. Instead, you would see makeup pots or pans hit the bottom or messy, un-aesthetic eyeshadow palettes. The tools of the trade showed love and constant usage. You won’t see any self-respecting YouTuber swiping a color on their face and going, “oh ✨ goooshhh ✨” or making the jaw-dropped expression. You would, however, hear them mumbling along the lines of, “– I really like this palette, love the color,” or “I love these things. I got them suuuper cheap at drugstores, and I feel like they hold their colors really well,” while applying the said product.

    I know some beauty YouTuber nowadays would scream and make a cross when they see this. Showing a “not new” product? Oh noes!

    Even if there were PR packages back then, it was rare for the YouTuber to go, “sooo, a lot of you guys have been asking me to do makeup of brand XYZ” (no, we did not) or “I love how this product is doing wonders on my skin! You can see that it makes my skin looks glowy and glassy!” then proceeded to take out a brand new, hermetically sealed skincare product from a box. Like, yeah, okay. Cool.

    Swatches? It was a guerrilla strategy between the YouTuber/blogger and exasperated salespeople. Karen from Makeup & Beauty Blog had to do duck-and-cover just to get swatches and pictures for MAC Fafi: MAC Fafi: The Things I Do For Love.

    Now, would I go back to those grainy, 16MB-quality pictures and videos, where we can’t see the products properly? No. We do have great names in this decade, such as Lisa Eldridge and Erin Parsons. They have even gone beyond beauty tutorials, sharing their passion for the industry and its history. What I genuinely feel we do need is the humane aspect of it. Not an ultra-polished poreless filter, 1.5x speed with overlapping narrations using AI-generated script (UGHHH!), hyperbolic reactions/expressions, and loud background music. Bring back my girl friends dammit.

    I can’t wait until we no longer have freaking algorithms in our timelines so people could just, you know, make things.

  • There is always a sense of… doubt whenever I want to talk about classics. Mostly because classics are usually, well, classics and well-known. That said, during my search of “when should we consider something is no longer need spoiler warning?” on search engine (Startpage on the browser Vivaldi, if you must), I found this:

    The age of the movie doesn’t matter as much as it’s pop culture ubiquity. Because the movie might be 50 years old, but every day there’s some kid turning 15-16 who is just now old enough to see the movie for the first time. They didn’t drag their feet and miss the bus, they just weren’t born yet.

    So! With that in mind, I wanted to talk about Agatha Christie’s “Five Little Pigs”.

    The story took a reference from the nursery rhyme titled “This Little Piggy”:

    This little piggy went to market,
    This little piggy stayed home,
    This little piggy had roast beef,
    This little piggy had none,
    And this little piggy cried wee wee wee all the way home.

    Each suspect in the novel is referred to as each little piggy, yes, there are five suspects in the story. A stockbroker (“this little piggy went to market”), the stockbroker’s brother (“this little piggy stayed home”), a socialite, and within the story, considered as the mistress of the victim (“this little piggy had roast beef”), the family’s governess (“this little piggy had none”), and a disfigured young archeologist (“this little piggy cried wee wee wee all the way home”).

    The mystery is brilliant, as always. In the usual Agatha Christie’s fashion, it’s always with an element of surprise. We, the readers, got taken into twists, personal stories, and different perspectives, all while trying to figure out whether one unreliable narrator is at play here, because with everything Agatha Christie, “overthinking” is on the menu. That said, I wanted to focus on how, after reading several of Ms. Christie’s works (and the list will grow in the future, for sure!), she was able to bring such depth and complexity to her female characters. I should say: The Girls of Agatha Christie.

    I’m saying this with my utmost love and admiration to Sir Arthur Conan Doyle: “Sherlock Holmes” is lacking such depth and complexity in the female characters. Yes, there are female characters, some of whom are admirable and famous. Then again, how often do we see them in such complex light? A lot of the women’s adventures were being told by them or by Dr. Watson’s writings (“she took out such-and-such from her purse and told Holmes and I about what she did yesterday…”); rarely, if ever, did we see the women in action. Except, perhaps, two: Irene Adler, whom, well, her. The Woman. And an unknown lady who shot Charles Augustus Milverton in “The Adventure of Charles Augustus Milverton”. Unknown lady. Unknown. If someone shot dead a blackmailer, nay, “the worst man in London”, at least we should know her name, right? RIGHT? Excuse me, Your Honor, I can vouch for her alibi. She was with me, having our little gossip-y session over tea while speculating whether Lord so-and-so is an actual human or Cthulhu personification, and not, you know, shot a man and spit at him, then left him to die all while he actually deserves it because my goodness, what kind of clothes that he wore at that time? Why did he wear such thin clothing and not metal armor? It seems like he’s asking for it!

    “Sherlock Holmes” is written by a man, and painfully obvious in that aspect.

    Although, to be completely fair, Sir Arthur Conan Doyle lived in the Victorian era, where even a glimpse of a woman’s ankle considered as scandalous (okay, okay, this is considered a “myth”, and for good reasons.) Thereby, less depth on women characters in popular works at that time was, unfortunately, common. Agatha Christie lived at the end of the said era up until her passing in 1976, with the height of literary works publication during the Edwardian era.

    Christie had long been a fan of detective novels, having enjoyed Wilkie Collins‘s The Woman in White and The Moonstone, and Arthur Conan Doyle‘s early Sherlock Holmes stories.

    Wikipedia

    Agatha Christie’s girls are of a different caliber. You could feel the chill of seeing a woman betrayed, on how she put out her biggest and widest smile, all while her brain is racking a murderous plan. I also found something really interesting in this novel: Guilt and understanding. In “Five Little Pigs”, the character Caroline Amyas had a younger half-sister named Angela. When they were younger, Caroline was so jealous of her half-sister that she threw a paperweight at Angela, which caused the latter to go blind in one of her eyes and her face to be disfigured for the rest of her life.

    However…

    She touched her damaged cheek.

    “You see this? You’ve probably heard about it?” Poirot nodded. “Caroline did that. That’s why I’m sure — I know — that she didn’t do murder.”

    “It would not be a convincing argument to most people.”

    “No, it would be the opposite. It was actually used in that way, I believe. As evidence that Caroline had a violent and ungovernable temper! Because she had injured me as a baby, learned men argued that she would be equally capable of poisoning an unfaithful husband.”

    “… Supposing that you are a person normally affectionate and of kindly disposition — but that you are also liable to intense jealousy. And supposing that during the years of your life when control is most difficult, you do, in a fit of rage, come near to committing what is, in effect, murder.

    Think of the awful shock, the horror, the remorse that seizes upon you. To a sensitive person, like Caroline, that horror and remorse will never quite leave you.

    It never left her.”

    This. This is why Agatha Christie’s girls are damn interesting. They were, and are, capable of understanding the complexity of human emotions and nature. One understood perfectly how trauma caused by one’s actions is inflicted on the individual who did the action. In that chapter alone, I learned how guilt and remorse could affect one’s lifetime of action toward another person.

    What’s next on the list?

    Next read: “The ABC Murders” by Agatha Christie. I vowed to finish all Agatha Christie books that I have right now ASAP. I still have some more books of Maurice Leblanc’s “Arsene Lupin”, too. I mean, my To Read list has been, uh, long.

    "Luv Connection" — Towa Tei

    Scattered rain here and there

  • “The Art of Sarah” (2026)

    I wanted to write a post here, but then I realized there is a plugin conflict going on between Gutenberg (just updated, roughly 3 hours ago from the time this post is written) and Yoast (last updated 7 days ago). While the conflict itself didn’t crash and burn the site (phew!), it’s quite intimidating to see that warning: The "yoast-seo" plugin has encountered an error and cannot be rendered. in red box on the top of the post editor. Anyway! I have submitted a report on the Gutenberg forum page, and hopefully the team could catch it in no time: https://wordpress.org/support/topic/gutenberg-ver-23-3-0-error-plugin-conflict-with-yoast-ver-27-7/

    Now. What I wanted to write here.

    Recently, I have been on K-drama watch. I am currently watching this series titled “The Art of Sarah“. I saw some short clips of their early episodes on social media, and I got curious. So far, I have been in the middle of episode 5, and this series reminds me of the whole story of Anna Delvey. A bit off topic: Julia Garner as Anna is MARVELOUS. Her voice as Anna is so annoying, it’s grating on my ears. That “I don’t have time for this, I don’t have time for you!”? Gah. So so so irritating. Love it to bits.

    (Intermezzo: I HATE the fact that it’s on Netflix, which means I can’t grab some screenshots to share here. This series has some beautiful and stylish shots that I wish I could share here.)

    There is one scene in the early episodes, though, that left an impression on me. On that episode, one of the characters is working as a staff member of a luxury brand store in a lavish mall. On her first day, her senior gave her a set of rules and limitations, including: Toilet. In it, her senior mentioned how her wealthy clientele could be so “delicate” that even the word “toilet” grossed them out, so the staff needs to say “I’m going for a tea time” whenever they need to take a toilet break. In that scene, it’s also shown how the staff and workers in the mall need to use a specific toilet, solely for the employees, away from and far from the visitors’ toilet.

    This kind of practice — having separate toilets — is not new, and I personally know and see some malls in Jakarta using this approach. The hospital that I frequently visit has the same policy, too: Separate toilets for the patients/visitors and the medical staff.

    That said, I understand where the drama “The Art of Sarah” came from. Korean entertainment, especially in movies and TV series, has been focusing a lot on class divisions, especially the social gap between the rich and the poor, as it’s evident in the movie “Parasite” (2019) by Bong Joon Ho. Hence, the casual mention of separate toilets/bathrooms for the ultra-wealthy clientele and regular middle-to-lower class employees, which, in actuality, is a really quiet (and sinister) way of saying, “you don’t belong here”. This is a direct jab at South Korea’s socio-economic gap issues and their chaebol culture.

    This series intrigued me, mostly because most of the luxury brands we see around us are usually superficial. Yes, I’m being preachy here, but at the same time, how many of us are watching Tanner Leatherstein ripping open and destroying some of the most famous (and obviously most expensive) luxury bags, only for him and us to see the quality of the said bag and how the price point has always been the “brand name”?

    Anyway. There is one thing that has been nagging me on the back of my head, especially on the separated toilets (hence why the scene left such an impression on me.)

    I have been in situations where people, even families, had to queue for using toilet stalls in malls, only for us to see a store staff/employee step out from one of the stalls with the phone blasting out some short videos on Instagram/Tiktok, which indicated that they were taking their sweet time inside the toilet stall watching short videos and giggling during their break while the queue keeps growing and growing.

    Nothing is wrong with employees taking their breaks. It’s mandated, even. But perhaps they can take it in some non-queueing places, perhaps? I’m a practicing muslim, and seeing mall employees taking their breaks inside the musholla/prayer room with both employees and visitors praying is really common. They usually watch short videos or browse social media, and it’s okay as long as the volume is not too loud. Some even took a quick shut-eye/nap. Again, it’s considered as okay.

    Honestly, I feel bad for thinking about this, as I feel like I’m being unfair by accusing people and their profession, and I’ve lumped those two into one, which… bad, but I really can’t find a way to express my frustrations 🫤 I feel that this is not an issue of “separated toilets”, but more about common sense when using public facilities. It just happened that it was a mall employee who got caught spending their time inside a toilet stall, and there is always a high chance that a mall visitor might do the same, too. Should we have a separate toilet for mall visitors and mall employees? Perhaps, or perhaps not. Depending on how we, as a community, use it.

    (Also, on the series, the staff lashed out by saying, “THE EMPLOYEES TOILETS ARE REALLY FAR! HOW DO YOU EXPECT US TO MAN THE STORE, GO TO THE TOILET, AND COME BACK IN SECONDS ALL THE TIME?!” Sooooo… (I’m trying to justify myself here) the issue is the access, I guess?)

    "Revere" — Gas-Lab & Kristoffer Eikrem

    Cloudy

  • “BKAB” — Ethan Stoller

    There is one song on my Last.fm list that I could never find on Apple Music or Spotify. Heck, I even had to “scrape” it from Youtube to make it into MP3 version so I can listen to it on my MP3 player.

    It’s “BKAB” by Ethan Stoller, and the song can only be found on the end credits of the film “V for Vendetta” (2005)

    In 2006, he produced the track “BKAB” which appeared in the film V for Vendetta. The track featured the unusual mix of Indian beats and Hindi vocals (sampled from the Bollywood films Main Khiladi Tu Anari and Raja Hindustani), speech excerpts by Malcolm X and Gloria Steinem, and a heavy guitar riff.

    Wikipedia 

    "BKAB" — Ethan Stoller

    The rain just stopped

  • Next project: Intermediate Theme Developer

    I want to develop themes that sing praises for the 2000s. I always feel we could have a bit more 2000s-era whimsy.

Nindya. Kapkap. she/her. Indonesian in Malaysia. Millennial. Lo-fi. Post-Rock. Gregorian. Animal Crossing: New Horizons. Murder mystery genre. “Love is Love“.

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